October 15, 2014 // Meals + Metal Yoga //
Wednesday was kind of a big deal for me.
I hit a major life milestone today. It’s really big. Huge, in fact. I won’t go into the specifics of what it is here, but it’s one of those things that you never think will happen and then it did. I’ve never felt so much like an independent person. It’s a major cause for celebration.
So how did I celebrate? Sushi.
No Orangetheory for me today. Instead, I met up with a friend at Tough Love for a really intense session of Metal Yoga. First, it was hot as hell in the studio. I don’t do hot yoga - I get dizzy when I get too hot so practicing yoga in the heat just sounds like recipe for disaster. But the A/C never came on, so I just dripped all over the place. My friend was even worse. I felt a bit bad because I think he was a bit taken aback by the intensity/heat of the session, but we made it.
Neda wanted us to focus on things that we don’t want to focus on. Literally. She used taxes as an example. Most people just muscle themselves through taxes. I had to do that myself this year with no assistance. It was scary, but I did it. As tempting as it was to lean on others to help me, I knew that leaning was no longer a viable option and I needed to accept the fact that I was fine to do it myself and that relying on others was just a crutch. So I did it.
Neda didn’t, however. She filed for an extension. And now, she has to deal with it now. So her point was: it’s easy to ignore the hard stuff. Taxes? Defer it! Yoga pose I hate doing? Don’t do it! Relationship that sucks? Pretend it doesn’t!
So Wednesday’s practice? DON’T IGNORE. If the pose is hard, work it. Her theory is that there’s gratification in getting it done. And - there was! I have had so much trouble with inversions. I can’t do them! But last night? I fucking nailed headstands. And it wasn’t just a fluke - over and over, I nailed it! I had a wall to help me, but that’s okay. I’ve had walls to assist me in the past and I couldn’t do them. I ROCKED them last night. And setting my intention of just working through it, despite my many failures before, finally paid off.
Wednesday was a good, good day.
I swung by Whole Foods after practice for a meat & veggies meal. DESPITE the fact that my mom is giving me crap for eating out all the time. Whatever. Do what I want.
It was a good day.